Scott Clark

Beautiful day this Sunday morning. Crappy night of sleep, horrible dreams, extremely sore from some hard physical work. But wow beautiful day!!! I came up to church early today for a few reasons but in my driving that put me driving past a lake while the sun was coming up in astounding beauty, thank you Lord. Had an honest conversation with some leaders this morning as we got ready for worship that called out a heaviness and laziness that some leaders were experiencing. Practice was frustrating, some issues in my leadership/relationships need to be hit head on that have slipped the last few weeks with some people. But WOW what an amazing day, as God hits me hard with trusting Him, and today I had to repent of hating myself and really who God has made me. Really, I realized that I have hated my personality, my physical appearance, my leadership skills… now I DO need to grow, and I hate that I am not walking with discipline and prayer… but God has called me to be Scott Clark, whether I am loved and liked by others or not!!!

I have a tendency to over study, over analyze, over complicate my welcomes, etc.

I am re-learning over and over again to truly trust God, to write down the things God reveals to me, but to stay flexible. Today God took what I had prepared for a welcome and adjusted like every other sentence, and as I was about to look over my notes I realized that everything God had changed would go out the window if I just looked “one more time”. So I decided not to look, which is a huge breakthrough for me, and God took my words and made it powerful, effective. Something that I could never do with my words.

All of that said and done, I am just saying that we need to trust who God has made us, be willing to be vulnerable (I could have forgotten everything without my notes and looked unprepared) because God will use you how He’s made you, not how you think you should be.

Our perfect God loves us how He made us, imperfect.

I am realizing that I blog more than most worship pastors. Really it’s kinda sad, cuz what do I get to read??? Huh? Now that’s not fair to me. J/K

Really, it is sad though. You have to pick and choose between semi-boring, but good theological blogs that are consistently talking about God or you have worship pastor’s blogs that are talk more often about their favorite secular CD from 2002 than the word of God. And here I am talking about them… shameful.

I hope I am down the middle. Interesting, not preachy (I am working on that one), passionate, convicted, funny, challenging. Forget the middle, I’m shooting for down right awesome!!!

You be the judge, leave me a comment and rate me on a scale of 8 to 10.

I have quite a bit going on now… but I’ll be honest that’s not really why I haven’t been blogging. I think it’s just that I haven’t felt very inspired to put this stuff into words.

But that’s not fair to you is it?

Some things…
This last thursday we had staff meeting at the church and I led worship as usual, but this time wasn’t usual. Preface – I always get nervous when starting an intimate worship time with no buffer or intro, even with church leaders, they have bad days too. So ive been trying to hit it head on and address it and charge into worship. It’s been good, but this week…

From the second I started praying to open there was a peace, God’s presence was HEAVY. I was planning on starting with Mighty to save for worship, but we went right into a time of silent prayer/ worship. Which if you don’t know, you can probably figure it out that if it ain’t a God thing it’s just an awkward thing… Anyways, so I start asking myself, in the silence, “Where are these guys at?? I had a plan, but poof, there that went. You know what? We all might be ready to go right into the holy of holies!!!” Whoo Hoo!! I was nervous, cuz of course what if Im wrong and I start a slow song and kill the worship time, but who cares!! I am learning, all over again it seems, to trust the spirit God has put in me, so I start playing “The Heights” (David Crowder Band) and about an hour later we finish worship time… yeah seriously.

Everything from prophetic song to coming into agreement with the word of God to a leader singing, praying, prohesying over other leaders. Breakthrough!! Thank you God. I haven’t felt that kind of annointing in probably years. I was broken for God’s heart. Singing how we need to break out of the walls of the church, break out into this community. Bleed for the people that Christ has already bled for.

I’m excited, God is moving and it won’t be stopped by man, or by satan, or by force. We need to protect ourselves and the leadership from what can stop it. And that’s laziness, religion, fear, distraction, etc., etc..

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I am trying to meet with the members of the worship team seperately as of late, just to love on them and challenge them. Get a status check, if you will. So far I have only gotten with one of them… BUT it was a really good meeting.

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Daycare is rolling along. I uploaded more info on the new site (allnationsacademy.info). We are just waiting on inspections!! It’s going to be so, so, so awesome having this as a resource.

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Got a new toy coming in the mail. I sold some guitar equipment and bought a Line 6 POD X3 Live!!! I am extremely excited!! I haven’t been able to spend any dough on my equipment for quite some time now, but I was tired of fighting with my current setup so I bit the bullet and sold some gear to buy some gear. The X3 has HUGE potential sonically, sweet effects, amp/cabinet options, and distortions. SWEET!!!

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Night of Worship!!! Keep an ear out because it is coming!! This speaks to culture change. We wouldn’t sell a putty cat to a Dog lover now would we?? So why would we throw a night of worship for the church if we weren’t experiencing freedom and breakthrough in our services? You guys are getting worship!! Showing up ready to receive, being willing to be vulnerable for the sake of pleasing our Savior! Creator! Lover! You are hungry for God! Can’t wait till tomorrow…

its been a few weeks I think since ive blogged……. sorry.

Now…….. I just finished the it book. Good book. You should read it.

I posted not too long ago about how I want God to use me to do big things (no not the big things most people think of, but kingdom things, meaningful things, everlasting things)

Things I want to commit to.
1. Be a freaking friend!! No I dont feel like Ive been valued enough by my friends (growing up was a whole nother issue) but that doesnt change my value, and that will not stop me from being the best friend I can be to others who need someone to love, encourage, and challenge them.
2. Start freaking failing!! I have already started thinking this into fruition, but I am not trying hard enough. Pastor Michael shot down an idea recently, but I’m not done thinking it through and then I’m going back to Him.
3. Freaking say what God is telling me to freaking say!! This one speaks again to my insecurities and self-conscience-ness. But I will not be afraid to be vulnerable and sound silly for the sake of life-change and loving God and people.
4. Be who God has made me!! It hurts, is scary, I still don’t really know who I am (seriously), and sometimes I don’t really like who I am (the flesh anyways), but God made me who I am. I will stop being ashamed to just be me. That might not be hard for you, but it is for me. Satan has done everything He can to destroy me everyday of my life, even today. He’s scared of what God has put in me, and that’s a freaking fact!

Fini.